sad...

I can't explain this
It's hard to understand
I try but I'm lost
Mesmerized by her
That look will surely stay
She smiles at every face,
even mine

But,

why doesn't she see me

in this empty room?

Does she think about you

when you do,

when you do?

I try

to walk that same hill

next to you

I try

to be that missing part of you

I guess I'll always do

I tremble as I wait
In these busy, city fields
I see a million stares at me
Anxiously looking
Finding the right time to see
If that sign you're looking for,
will lead to me

But, don't you see what you're doing to me?

Can't you see that I've been

dealt by this, dealt by you?

I try to shut them
Blurring this picture from my head
But even in the dark, you are there...

"...jillian..."